Excited Terror

Excited terror is pretty much the best way to describe how I feel each morning as I go into work. OK, that might be exaggerating just a little bit, but it is a bit scary.

I am excited to be moving on with a new career. It's what I've been wanting for a long time. But, now that it is here, I can't help but wonder some mornings what I have gotten myself into. I have gone from a job (though not too exciting or fulfulling) I knew very well and was confident in doing, to a job where there is so much to learn that I question if I will ever really know it all. Logic, reason and experience all tell me that "YES" some day I will know this job just as well as my previous job and that I will look back and find it amusing how stupid I felt when I first started.

Every day, I learn a little bit more and feel a little more confident in my ability to do the job. And as things come up that I have already done (and I know what to do this time), I feel all that much more certain that I will learn all the other things I need to know too. I still have the added burden of having to do much of my old job while I am trying to learn the new one and feel like I have not been able to really focus on learning what I need to learn. I'm sure once they have hired a replacement for me and I can really go at the new job, things will go a lot better.

I have almost completed my second week now, and am finding that some of the things that seemed overwhelming last week, seem less so this week. I am really looking forward to all there is to learn in this new job and being able to REALLY concentrate entirely on it. For the first time in a long time I feel excited and positive about my future (as far as career/job goes).